Sectioned in Hospital - Day 71

Written by Fox.

DAY 71 - 17th October, Thursday

Keri didn't get up until this afternoon, which was partially down to the fact the staff came into her room at 9am and gave her her morning medication which included the higher dose of Quetiapine, which meant it knocked her out again. It means she's been spaced out for a lot of the day and has spent a lot of time on her own, using the HDU garden a lot again.

The dietician finally managed to ambush Keri today although she was very upset as the scales said she'd put on 0.3kgs. Logic completely went out of the window and she didn't take into account the fact she had her boots on, three layers of clothing and had drunk nearly a litre of water because she'd felt so dehydrated. The last time she was weighed it was just after she'd got out of bed and she was wearing a pair of leggings and a long top. Big difference! The dietician is rescheduling to visit in a week so Keri will be prepared for when she's next weighed. Keri said she was going to binge today but was going to water fast starting tomorrow until she's next weighed. The dietician tried to persuade Keri not to but Keri's dead set on it.

Keri had her psychotherapy straight after the dietician which clashed with her physiotherapy so they're coming to see her tomorrow instead. Keri and her psychotherapist sat down on a bench near the outpatients unit. Apparently she'd been in touch with Keri's court intermediary, talking about the risk assessment and Keri's capability of coping with the cross examination. Keri told her that she'd be fine in court but I know different. I know what Sally's planning and I know what Keri's head is like. I never swear but I have to: we're fucked.

Over two hours of this evening were spent with Keri on the phone to her mum! I know she wants to build bridges and everything but I really think the amount of contact Keri is having is a bit overboard. I'm not minding the fact that they're seeing each other once a fortnight but spending ages on the phone every evening is not good for Keri's well being. Maybe in the future when their relationship can be worked on more but not two and a half weeks before court. It stirs up a lot of emotions that Keri herself can't deal with. It means the rest of us have to try and take on the feelings instead which makes us feel crap! Not helping when I'm already feeling groggy from Keri's medication.