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July 2019 update: we’ve only recently come out of hospital again as Keri had quite a severe crisis and Sally was more homicidal than usual which led to things being quite dangerous. We got home a couple of weeks ago and I’ve wanted to restart my blog as being around Keri’s head is very stressful right now as she’s still experiencing some sort of psychotic episode. I don’t know how to explain it as I’m not a psychiatrist. When I’m out on my own I only have to deal with my own brain and I get peace and quiet from everyone else! We’ve also started a YouTube channel and Natalie thinks it’s a good idea to cut together bits of some of Keri’s diary videos from hospital to show what she’s like during an episode but we’re still weighing this up as it could leave Keri feeling very vulnerable. Until then, I want to enjoy blogging again and I hope you will enjoy reading my personal updates and tips as much as I enjoy writing them!
Considering you're reading my blog, I thought you'd like to know about the person who's actually writing it.
First off, my name is Fox, I'm 15 years old (although everyone says I’m a lot older than my years!) and I’m an alter. I’m one of four leaders. Our body is actually 25 years old and her name is Keri. She’s diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder with transient psychotic episodes, treatment-resistant depression, agoraphobia and bulimia nervosa. Some of our symptoms flare up quite severely at times, other times they can be mild while other ones get worse. It's all a bit complicated really. Our life is kind of like a rollercoaster as some of us have our own diagnoses that are different to the ones Keri is diagnosed with.
We’ve been in and out of psychiatric/medical hospitals. We were put into care when Keri was 15 as we were detained in a secure unit, and from there we were banned from going back to live at home by the courts due to abuse. We'd been moved around too many times to count due to various behaviours by Keri and other alters that left everything going crazy every time we got moved somewhere else, but for nearly 3 years had been settled in a foster placement. A bit of stability did us all good. We still consider them our foster parents even now and love the times we go to see them. They accept not just Keri but the rest of us too, for who we are, no matter how different. Unfortunately we were sectioned in hospital which meant we couldn’t live with our foster parents anymore. That was from beginning of August 2013 to end of November 2017. We got discharged to live in our own flat with 24 hour care from support workers and we’re still here now. We also have a private therapist we see every week, and have done since January 2018.
Keri is a writer, an artist, a poet, a musician, and a song-writer. I’m more of a writer and blogger but I love listening to Keri’s songs when she records them as I think they’re beautiful. I love writing my blog but it’s been put off lately while we’ve adapted to life outside of hospital. The creativity and sense of humour is what gets us through. Music and writing are good outlets although each alter has their own ways of coping.
We've been in therapy for just over 10 years. Sometimes we do feel like a guinea pig and I’m sure I’m not the only alter that does. We've changed treatment a few times and sometimes treatment is interrupted by a crisis for a time. Since our four year section, we’ve had to go to hospital 3 times but that’s nothing considering how well we’ve done overall. Keri is agoraphobic which can be quite isolating for her but I often go for evening walks as I love seeing the stars. Just because Keri is scared to go out alone doesn’t mean the rest of us are.
Since being discharged in November 2017 (not including the temporary setbacks since then) we’ve stopped using Facebook so much so that we can share an Instagram account (all of us alters). Through therapy we’ve all learned to share things more as even though we share one body we all have equal right to come out and enjoy our own things. Cooperation is key and we’re learning to live as good a life as possible but there’s still arguments of course. We’re making the most of what we can and I’d say we’re doing really well despite everything that’s happened. We have a long way to go but until then, I’m going to be proud of what I’ve managed to do and I’m also proud of what many of the other alters have managed to achieve, both in hospital and out of it. Enjoy my blog :)
