DAY 16 - 23rd August, Friday
It wasn't even 12pm before Keri had seen both the doctor and the physiotherapist! She's had bloods taken to check for any sign of arthritis and the physiotherapist has suggested Keri may need x-rays on her wrists because she can feel the problems with her cartilage, there's a bit of "wear and tear". She's only 19! Maybe if things turn out that she's damaged her body to that extent it might give her a wake up call about her eating. It better do anyway.
She's been given exercises to do for her wrists twice a day supervised by staff (she uses a long yellow elastic belt so a staff member has to be with her while she does the exercises). This has to be done for at least 6 weeks before any improvement may be seen and then she'll have to carry on doing the exercises indefinitely. The physiotherapist is still trying to figure out how she can help Keri with her ankles as her first theories of it being ligament problems appears to be wrong. All Keri can do is keep up with her wrist exercises and then on Tuesday she can start going down to the gym with the physiotherapist to work on her ankles (the physiotherapist will see Keri every week day but it's a bank holiday on Monday so she's not in). By then hopefully her blood tests will be back to see if she has arthritis. It's amazing what a couple of vials of blood can do nowadays.
A quiet day overall thank god. She had her session with her psychotherapist who's still extremely worried about Keri's welfare if she was to be sent home. She's still not allowed to leave the ward unescorted. The psychotherapist tried to tell her that the bug would go away on it's own but Keri is adamant that it won't. All the nurses have said that she can't cut through bone to get to the bug that she thinks is inside her skull, yet she keeps trying. Now she's fixated on power tools. She doesn't see that that'll kill her if she bores a hole through her skull to get an insect out, she just thinks she can then pull it out and everything will be be fine. If this blog shows anyone anything, it'll be that that kind of thinking is obviously irrational yet someone who's psychotic sees this kind of thing as totally normal. I'm so thankful she's not allowed out on her own! I don't want to die because of a delusion Keri's suffering with! Especially if she kills herself by drilling into her brain.
She's still drawing which is nice. She finished her negative space bunny yesterday and has moved on to a butterfly. Ill probably post some pictures on the DID page when I can. It's amazing how something so simple can look so brilliant. Although it may look simple, I've tried and can't get it right like Keri can! I want her artistic skills! I don't think I have any skills besides using my eyes and ears properly!
On the bright side it's absolutely shooting down with rain which means Clarissa won't have a joint tonight. She was jealous about Keri sharing it so has now hidden it so only she knows where it is and she's the only one who can have it. She won't even tell me! Obviously she knows I'd get rid of it. I'm not happy with Clarissa smoking weed as it also affects Keri. She's already psychotic and paranoid, don't need anything to make it worse!
Keri's little brother wants to visit her again this week. None of the staff at his supported housing will be available to bring him up (he lives about an hour or so away) so he's thinking of coming to visit with Keri's foster mum which will be nice. Although Keri's verbal skills are going downhill again, especially late this evening. You can barely get a word out of her. She's quite literally being sucked into her own little world again. She's depressed, she's suicidal, and she wants her section lifted and to go home. But who's going to let her home if she's determined to revert to power tools to get out a bug that doesn't even exist?
P.S. More medication added to her night dose? You can't even see the bottom of the pill pot now! Keri even turned round and said to the nurse, "If I carried my day's worth of medication in my bag people would think I'm a drug dealer." They just laughed. Even better was the response from the nurse giving her the medication! He replied by saying, "Yeah, and think about how much money you could make by selling them!" Just thought I'd add that little lighthearted bit towards the end. :)
