DAY 9 - 16th August, Friday
Keri had a little hiccup this morning. She was extremely distressed again and rapidly pacing and refusing medication. Once again she was grabbed by the arm to stop her pacing in the garden, made to sit down on a bench and finally ended up taking her tablets. She didn't calm down for a long time but at least she didn't try to escape over the fence! She did ask Vex to talk to Dr. W about giving her unescorted leave as she's still not allowed off the ward on her own. He promised to do this so that Keri would take her medication. The problem was, Dr. W refused to give her any leave because it would involve Keri trying to cut out this "bug". She's still determined. This upset her a lot as she stood at the nurses' station for a while (her room was being painted) watching all the other patients get given permission to go off the ward. The more people that went the more depressed and agitated she was getting. She still hasn't accepted the reasons why she's been sectioned.
A very constructive session with her psychotherapist I have to say. Not once did she argue with Keri's delusions or hallucinations and when she tried challenging Keri's thoughts she did it in a calm and careful manner. This wasn't done to say what she was thinking wasn't real to her, it was to try and understand her delusions and paranoia better and to see how layered they were. Turns out things were a little deeper than originally thought.
Her old respite carers visited this evening. I loved the fact she was laughing so much. She was allowed leave off the ward with them which was brilliant for her and on the way back they ran into a member of staff. At this point Keri was almost pissing herself and the nurse turned round and said, "Dear god, what have you given her?! That's the first time I've seen her laugh since she's been here!" She was having some kind of episode, the kind where she was quite hyper for a while and couldn't stop laughing. That was because it wasn't just her that was out, it was half Keri and half Clarissa! Damn twin sister trying to burst out! But I'm glad she did as Clarissa's laughing was contagious and it did make Keri genuinely smile when she was fully her again.
Keri found out her next CPA (a care plan meeting) is being held on Tuesday next week. Her foster mum is not going to be happy about that at all! Her foster mum should be at Keri's CPAs but the problem is they'd still be on holiday! Or getting back extremely early in the morning and needing sleep, can't remember which one. Either way her CPA is at 10am which is a ridiculous time if they've got back home from the plane journey. Her foster mum can't be expected to go!
Distraction today has been doing her negative space drawings and movies, alternating between the two so her concentration levels stay focused; a few minutes drawing, a few minutes watching the movie and so on. I'll probably post a picture of the one she's done of a cat when I get the chance! All with a blank piece of A4 paper and a ball point pen!
She's losing weight again, unintentionally. She is eating but because of all the pacing she's doing the energy is being burned off straight away. I'm praying that this doesn't cause another ED relapse. She has enough problems as it is being in the midst if a paranoid psychotic episode let alone being kept on her section because of ending up as a walking skeleton again. Let's keep hoping.
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