Sectioned in Hospital - Day 41

Written by Fox.

DAY 41 - 17th September, Tuesday

Keri got her screening results back from Remy Aquarone today, less than 24 hours after having them sent off! She's printed 5 copies to hand out to people and saved a copy on her iPad so she can print more if needed. Maybe now her psychiatrist might give her PROPER treatment when she gets discharged from hospital. I'm not saying that her art psychotherapist isn't any good, but it would be helpful to be respected by the psychiatrist.

Her ward round didn't go well. She's still not able to be allowed off the ward unescorted and she's still sectioned. It's the same story every week. No changes. No leave. The doctor even talked about lowering her antipsychotics even though Keri had said that she'd stopped pacing so much now the dose was higher! Why lower it if the higher dose is helpful!? In the end no changes were made to her medication either. Even more helpful. The doctor was talking about changing things very slowly. Not even close to a discharge plan.

Because of all this Keri has decided that she's going to bypass getting the bug out of her head and just go straight for suicide, although the bus passes a B&Q so she might end up stopping and having a look at the tools in there before continuing on her journey if she doesn't see anything helpful. I don't know. I can't keep up with her thoughts. They're moving way too quickly.

What's made it worse is that Trixie ended up somehow slipping out and was upset because of the confusion. She thought it was July and wondered why the hell it was September, had no idea where she was and was very confused when a staff member knocked on her door and told her to go down to take her medication when she was ready. She wasn't out for long. I don't know how she got back in as she hasn't learnt how to switch yet so it normally happens by accident.

Please let it be calm tomorrow. I know it probably will be calm in the morning as I think Keri will hibernate again. Probably? Maybe a definite as it has gone 3am and again I haven't had time until now to write the blog post. I thought I might as well take advantage of the fact she's still awake! I found out the opposite of nocturnal last night from Autumn! It's diurnal. Learn something new every day, huh?