DAY 95 - 10th November, Sunday
More isolation and hibernation. Keri's just so depressed. The HDU garden has still been kept locked, she's still being confined to the unit and she's still being kept on ten minute observation. Even through all this observation she was still able to self harm to the extent that once again she needed stitches, more than yesterday.
Jewels took Keri to the BRI in a taxi and was really good with Keri in the waiting room. Keri was getting more and more agitated to the point she was scaring some of the other people waiting. She was hallucinating and thought a guy was constantly staring at her. Jewels kept trying to reassure Keri until it was time to see the nurse. Jewels managed to get hold of Callington on the phone as it was obvious Keri needed PRN. She couldn't keep still and was still hallucinating. All she heard was some guy banging at the cubicle door.
"Stop him knocking on the door!" Keri said rocking back and forwards.
"There's no one knocking, Keri," Jewels said, crouching down and putting her hand on Keri's knee. "It's just me, you and the nurse."
The nurse was on the phone to Callington when Keri went nuts.
"Fucking stop it!" she screamed at the door.
Jewels sat down with her and tried to calm her down. She was rocking, talking to herself, scratching at her head, hyperventilating and overall panicking like hell! The nurse managed to get some Lorazepam and Jewels made sure Keri took it. The nurse wasn't going to be able to suture Keri's arm while Keri was like she was.
After about half an hour Keri was a lot calmer and was on the point of keeling over. The nurse stitched up Keri's arm. She needed more stitches than yesterday and has also lost half the feeling in her right hand, hopefully only temporary. When they were done they thanked the nurse and Jewels kept Keri steady by holding onto her. She was very unsteady on her feet and her coordination was all over the place; a combination of medication, blood loss and not eating all day. Jewels got her a bar of chocolate while they waited for the taxi. By this point Keri was hardly able to walk in a straight line and had lost the use of her right arm due to the amount of padding the nurse had to use to dress Keri's wound.
She's back on the ward now and even had a couple of slices of toast. She's finding it depressing though that the only way she's being allowed off the ward is when it's due to the fact she needs stitches. And if she wants to run away she can't because of the weakness afterwards due to the blood loss etc so that doesn't work in her favour. Not that I'm complaining.
Keri's mum and her partner are visiting tomorrow and bringing Keri coffee and chocolate! They're also bringing little Amos along so he can slobber all over Keri's face. They're well aware that Keri has no leave and isn't allowed out of the ward unless it's urgent. It's nice of them to come anyway. Although hopefully Creepy isn't around (I'd normally come up with better pseudo names for patients but Keri and her mum ended up coming up with it days ago!)
I think Keri might go to bed earlier as she's completely exhausted. And surprisingly she's still only on ten minute observation and not on one to one. Although the staff did ask her earlier about moving her room so that she was up by the main reception area so she could be observed more closely. Keri said she didn't want to move. She likes it in the HDU. It's quiet and no one really gets disturbed and seclusion is rarely used at night so it's nice for her, but the staff want her closer, just in case. The HDU is a separate area at the very end of the main corridor. A long walk for staff when they're having to check her every ten minutes!
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