Sectioned in Hospital - Day 92

Written by Fox.

DAY 92 - 7th November, Thursday

Keri is so drained! She refused to get out of bed until gone 3pm because she's so depressed and tired. It's making her keep herself isolated. She even missed out on seeing her psychotherapist (who wanted to see Keri today before their appointment tomorrow to check in) because she refused to get out of bed. 

She asked for unescorted leave a couple of hours after getting up but was refused it. She was even preparing herself for an argument with Dr. Dickhead but found out he was on leave. Her psychiatrist she normally sees can't make any decisions without his say so. Instead she settled with having to go to Tesco with Blondie. All she wanted to get was food, except it all ended up down the toilet. Keri's anxiety has been so bad she hasn't been able to keep any food down and has spent a lot of time having to stay close to a bathroom.

She's becoming even more suicidal, if that's even possible, and has been considering just doing it in the hospital rather than waiting to get to the suspension bridge. You can still see from her face how emotionally drained she is and how much everything is effecting her. She's thinking way too much. All she's doing now is waiting and it's killing her. Just... waiting. There's nothing else for her to do. Now she's thinking about what will happen if the jury can't make a decision and it ends up as a 'hung jury' which would mean yet another retrial. To me, I think her abuser will go to prison but that's just my opinion. Keri may not want her abuser in prison but she'll be absolutely gutted if there's a non-guilty verdict. She's very torn apart about it all. There's nothing I can do to fix that either which is even more annoying!

There's a good thing about today, Sally hasn't come out. Though Keri has had a massive dissociative headache all day which got to the point at one stage that she could hardly open her eyes. Yet another waiting game... when will Sally reveal herself again? Will it be a public display or in the privacy of Keri's bathroom? What will she do? What will the consequences be? Jeez, someone needs to calm Keri's head down!