Sectioned in Hospital - Day 59 & 60

DAY 59 - 5th October, Saturday

Keri didn't even bother getting up until the staff turned up at her door when it was nearing 2pm saying that her mum and her mum's partner had arrived to visit her! They were here for a good 3 hours and even went to the supermarket for a bit. They got Keri a nice new case for her iPad which she's very grateful for. They chatted loads and her mum said that the next time they visited they'd bring their dog, Amos, and go out for a walk around the hospital's nature reserve with him. He loves water and there's a pond up there! Keri's mum said he goes straight for water whenever he sees it! Overall it was actually a good visit although, as always, Keri gets all these guilty horrible feelings afterwards that stem from past experiences etc. So it's the after effects people worry about mostly. 

Luckily Keri has been fine for the rest of the evening and spent a lot of time playing pool; either practising by herself or going against other patients. She's getting fairly good at it actually! Of course Keri still felt depressed, she has been for a while, but she at least forced herself to spend time in the communal areas.

Later that evening some of the patients even went down to the sports hall to play badminton. Keri was the only one who didn't take a rest! She was getting more and more competitive and was constantly thinking "burn calories, burn calories, burn calories". On the bright side Keri had an apple this evening as she was to the point where she was going to faint in the middle of the hospital. Her mum brought in a bag of six of them! So Keri had one and then put the rest in a bowl to share with the other patients. I didn't think they'd be eaten but apparently a lot of the patients have a taste for a good apple! Especially the red ones!

With all the time Keri's spent playing over an hour of badminton and playing pool most of the day I'm surprised she's still awake. It's about 3.30am now and Keri's not even got changed. She's not tired at all. It seems like the more exercise she does during the day the more restless she is at night. Weird paradox.

DAY 60 - 6th October, Sunday

Considering Keri didn't go to bed until way past 4am she refused to get out of bed until after 3pm. I don't blame her. She's hit a really bad patch of depression, and it's only going to get worse as the court case gets closer. It's less than a month away now and I honestly couldn't tell you whether she's going to be able to give evidence. She might have committed suicide by the time the court case is supposed to begin.

Well, she's back to eating absolutely nothing again and has been playing a lot of pool. She's realised that playing pool burns a fair amount of calories compared to sitting and watching movies etc. That's all she's thinking about! Just... calories, and suicide. What a horrible brain to be in. I hope to god she doesn't get let out on leave over the next few days, not with the way she's feeling right this second. Even though she's feeling horrible she did get out her iPad today and went onto the ward and took some pictures of some of the good times she has with various patients; obviously with the patient's consent. Some of the photos are pretty good and I'm glad Keri has them, it proves that being in hospital doesn't mean that it has to be a constant state of depression all the time with people always sitting in corners crying. Sometimes, we can have a laugh. Laughter is the best medicine.

Good luck getting up tomorrow, Keri! Your psychotherapy appointment is at 12.30pm! Have fun getting out of bed for that one! Haha,, ;)