Sectioned in Hospital - Day 5

Written by Fox.

DAY 5 - 12th August

Keri felt the bug crawling in her head again this morning. She found a pen in the garden and snapped it into pieces and dug into her head to get it out but it didn't work. She ended up very distressed and sat with a member of staff for a while who gave her some Lorazepam. She'd only taken her morning medication an hour before that so clearly they weren't working! Luckily after the nurse sorted her wounds and had a chat, Keri was able to calm down, to the point of not having to pace round and round the garden!

Her psychotherapist was late for Keri's appointment but that's because she didn't know where to find her! Keri had a very constructive session. She was able to be open and honest and her psychotherapist not once tried arguing with her about her delusions and hallucinations. But she didn't agree to them either. For instance, Keri said that the five guys following her were standing on the hospital grounds outside the fence of the garden (the fences are green wiring about 8 feet high). Fiona didn't turn around and say "Well you're hallucinating", instead she said "That must be scary for you Keri." She didn't deny anything but she didn't encourage the delusions either, if that makes sense.

Her foster mum also visited which was nice as Keri was getting desperate to see her! She brought her some extra clothing etc along with a sense of humour which lightened Keri's spirits a bit, although inside she was a bit upset that she was going to be left in hospital for a week without being able to see her. Hopefully by the time they get back Keri will be a bit more logical and will be able to go home.

Keri had started to get cabin fever. She begged the nurses to take her out as she's only been given half an hour escorted leave so isn't allowed out on her own. The nurses said there weren't enough staff to take her out and she'd have to wait until tomorrow. Bare in mind Keri had actually been asking all day and each nurse said, wait for an hour, wait for an hour, wait for an hour. It wasn't surprising when it got to the point Keri had another outbreak of hysterical tears for an hour because she felt like a criminal who'd been locked in prison. Eventually the staff managed to calm her down and decided it would be best if one of them took Keri out. Why couldn't this have been done earlier? Does Keri crying for an hour really change the amount of staff available? What is this logic?!

She's started going to bed early now which is weird! Well, early to her is about midnight. Gives me a chance to write her blog, update her page and do all that stuff. None of us have come out directly to staff. We don't feel safe enough. If we're going to dissociate and let off steam it's likely to happen a lot during the sessions with her psychotherapist. Let's just say they could be quite fun-filled!