Sectioned in Hospital - Day 12 & 13

Written by Fox.

DAY 12 - 19th August, Monday

Not much to highlight the day with. Keri was doing the usual and clawing at her head and pacing, still unable to have unescorted leave. The only thing that kept her somewhat sane is that T&D came to visit her again which she was quite happy about. They've visited her 4 times since she's been on the ward and are going on holiday tomorrow. If Keri is still in hospital by Monday (which is practically a given) then they said they'll carry on visiting her which I found really nice. They're very kind hearted people and care a lot about Keri. Keri likes them too so it all goes hand in hand! They did a bit of shopping, sat in a cafe, totally lost track of time! It was okay though, although I did notice her mood rapidly drop after they'd gone. Partly this is because when she has visitors they get to leave when they're finished, leaving Keri on her own, sectioned in an adult psychiatric unit.

She did take all her medication, good girl! She also saw Fiona which didn't last too long as Keri was so drained of energy she could barely get out of bed until the late afternoon. That's because Sally is like a walking time bomb. If she ever wants to come out then sometimes Keri feels very fatigued and gets bad migraines, which she's currently having now! Luckily there's been no Sally episodes as of yet!

DAY 13 - 20th August, Tuesday

Oh. Dear. Lord. Keri had her CPA today and she is seriously pissed. I don't swear very often but that's honestly the only word I can use! Her outreach worker from the fostering agency was there, along with her care co-coordinator, a substitute psychiatrist, someone from the Intensive Team and a nurse. The outcome of this meeting was that Keri's section was not going to be lifted and she had to remain in hospital. She was also not allowed any unescorted leave either. Her next review meeting isn't until next Thursday. So what's going to be the point of her ward round on Tuesday exactly? Or maybe they'll skip her and save it until Thursday? Who knows.

Even though Keri still isn't allowed unescorted leave she's now been granted 4 hours escorted leave (with a trusted adult) and isn't to be left alone at any time. I'm assuming this has been put in place for when her foster carers are fit and ready when they're back from their holiday (which I think is tonight). If that's the case then Keri will be able to start going home for a couple of hours. I'm very worried about this. It's not because I'm not happy that Keri will have the chance of going home it's just the amount of things she can get her hands on to get the bug out of her head. I was thinking of contacting Liz via Facebook and telling her about my concerns; Sally's blades, a kitchen knife, or even one of her foster dad's power tools. If they know the signs to look out for then they might be able to stop her doing anything, like if she starts scratching at her head or pulling out her hair.

The other concern is getting her back to the hospital. There's an issue with what Sally might decide to do if Keri goes home and also Keri doesn't think anything is wrong and doesn't need to be sectioned anyway. Obviously she does need to be in hospital. With all the NHS cuts going on they try to keep as many people out of hospital as possible, especially on a section. 

I was actually expecting her to try and scale the fence today and have the alarms going off again and again from kicking off but it turns out she's done the complete opposite. Besides needing some Lorazepam to calm her down after trying to cut her head again she's been pretty calm since about half an hour after the meeting. She even went out with staff to Tesco (which is right opposite the hospital). Yes, there were buses there that she could've jumped on but it would've ended up that the nurse with her would've had to call the ward and get some help to drag her back to the ward and the bus wouldn't have been allowed to leave until Keri was off the bus. She had very strong urges to just leg it to the bus but didn't. At that point she was trying to stay calm. 

She saw the physiotherapist today because of her joint problems. She's had problems with them for years and the medical opinion (and also the opinion of everyone else!) is that it's because of the years she's spent without proper nutrition, either binge eating, throwing up or starving herself completely. I can't even remember the last time she had a decent healthy meal herself (I'm not including me in that). The most you'd get her to have is some toast!

So today has been calm in some respects. She was in hysterics earlier as she's been chatting a lot to another sectioned patient (let's call her Olivia). She was running around screaming "Thank you staff! Thank you for forcing medication in me! Thank you! I'm psychotic! I have a delusional disorder! You've saved me! I'm cured!" Keri found this hilarious. I have no idea why. I didn't find it very funny at all! It was another Clarissa/Keri moment which are starting to get confusing!

Physio tomorrow. Plus she wants to go to the gym in the morning in the hospital. Might do her some good. It's only 2 hours a day so there's restrictions which means it won't be possible for Keri to become too obsessive-compulsive about exercising, hopefully.