Sectioned in Hospital - Day 143

Written by Fox.

DAY 143 - 28th December, Saturday

There's not much to say about today. Keri's kept herself in her room and didn't even  get up until gone 4pm because of the fiasco that happened last night. She's barely said a word, been sat in the same positions for hours and seems to be sinking into her 'other' world (will explain later in the post).

The concern from the police has gone really high. Last night the sergeant was concerned over what could happen to Keri, saying that there only has to be 'one time', and about the amount of response he'd had to try and round up to be able to find Keri. As Keri's classed as high risk, the police have to send out all their resources, including the helicopter and the dogs. It spreads their officers very thin on the ground. This could cause some issue with Keri staying on Alder Unit.

Back to Keri, she has 'another world'. It's not even close to a daydream, she actually feels it as another reality, sometimes even more so than this one. Her parents are still together and she's been in hospital since she was 8 years old (which is a way of explaining away her 8 year amnesia). She doesn't have a little brother, and her little sister never died, so there's just her and her sister. According to them she was never in care and she was institutionalised because she's schizophrenic (this is all in her world, it's not fact; although she did have a baby sister who died when she was very young). Keri prefers that world to this one so when she starts getting into a SERIOUS form of depression she slips into an almost catatonic state. Her body is still there but her head is somewhere else. She becomes unresponsive and barely moves a muscle. She presents outwardly in the same way she would if none of us came out and her body was just a shell with no personality filling it, except the difference is, Keri's personality still does fill it, but she's totally involved in a different world. It's very complicated!

Keri's been allowed to go out and smoke alone today but this evening they've started putting her on one to one observation whenever she goes out to smoke. They thought it would be a good idea "just in case" as they've realised that Keri's most likely to dissociate at night time. They've even started checking her straight after handover at 9.30pm instead of waiting for hourly observation and checking her at 10pm to make sure she's still in her room and hasn't disappeared.

Hopefully she'll get an early night tonight. She wants to go to the supermarket tomorrow but she can't do that if she's not up until 4pm! She's well rested from her bad dissociative episode. But if she can't go then I'll go for her. It's the least I can do and at least I'll feel like I've managed to help her somehow!