Sectioned in Hospital - 5 months 30 days

Written by Fox.

DAY 184 - 7th February, Friday

Could Keri have gotten up in any more of a restless and annoyed mood? No! And now I'm feeling really restless and miserable which means poor Jimmy and Daniel are being neglected as I couldn't give them the proper attention that they wanted! I don't want them coming out in this hospital. Can you imagine a 4 year old wandering around an acute ward? Especially with some of the patients here.

Keri had her appointment with Fiona today but I couldn't pay much attention to what was going on. I really struggled trying to distract Jimmy and Daniel so David ended up having to help me. He even said I should go off and rest for a bit and get some help. I have no idea why I feel so off. Maybe I should see Fiona on Monday during Keri's next psychotherapy session. 

Well, Keri got up in a mood and as the day went on things seemed to get progressively worse, especially this evening as Sally has started partially coming out so Keri's starting to feel short tempered and angry. This little old woman kicked Keri tonight (although it wasn't even hard enough to leave a bruise but Sally still got annoyed). Keri just shouted "What the fuck was that for?" The woman then walked to the other side of the room where they were smoking and started muttering under her breath. Keri felt herself getting really angry so threw away her cigarette and went straight to her room. She spent nearly 20 minutes arguing with Sally as Sally wanted to come out and beat the little old lady up, whereas Keri knew this woman has dementia so tries not to take things personally (which is hard when Sally's quite dominant). Things are not going to be good tomorrow. One wrong word from someone and bang, Sally's going to ballistic. Although maybe that's a good thing. She needs to vent, even if it gets Keri into trouble. 

Good news though, Keri's found a replacement for her iPod. Well, actually Natalie mentioned it to me when I was trying to get her to the forefront of everything. Keri can sync all her iTunes music to her phone so can use that to plug her headphones into but it's just a pain for her because of the battery. The battery life of an iPod nano is a lot better than an iPhone 5s!

Sectioned in Hospital - 5 months 17 days

Written by Fox.

DAY 171 - 25th January, Saturday

Keri woke up quite late again. She didn't go to bed until early this morning. The staff tried repeatedly to get her up but gave up after a while. They knew Keri would get up when she felt she was able to.

I've spent most of the day trying to search for Natalie (one of our oldest alters) and Keri has spent most of the day with her little brother. Jamie cut Keri's hair so that she no longer looked like she had a mop on her head. They chilled out and watched TV, did some shopping in the supermarket, escorted by staff. As far as I'm aware Keri enjoyed his company, although of course I can't say that for certain as I was a bit busy myself. She normally does like him visiting though so I don't see why today would be any different.

Tonight Keri was getting extremely depressed again. She went out to smoke to find Ade and Gemma sat smoking on the bench. In the end they invited her to have a game of Scrabble in the foyer. The game went on for over an hour! Keri lost but she didn't mind. She had her medication an hour late and sat outside with Ade after the game to smoke. He said that Keri seemed a little more alert than yesterday and Keri said it was because of the time she'd spent with staff rather than all her concentration being on Sally and her criticism.

Unfortunately Keri is back in her room again but I'm hoping she'll spend some more time with Ade and Gemma tonight, whether sitting in the office or playing a game with them. The less conversation with Sally the better off we are. Keri's CPA is in 6 days. There's still a 100% probability that Sally will have disappeared by then, at least once, or cut Keri to the point she needs stitches (which isn't helping her iron levels which are already low). 

I'm hoping to find Natalie tomorrow. I'm giving it another shot for Keri's sake. 

TRIGGER WARNING - scars, stitched wound and dressed wounds in the photo.

P.S. Keri's new hair. She's pretty happy with it. One of the bonuses of having a little brother who does hairdressing!